Side-lined

Yep. I've officially been put on the disabled list. It all started when I fell on my stairs here at home on Memorial Day weekend. My socks were all stretched out and loose on my feet, and I just hit the step wrong and my foot slid in the sock and down I went. Hard. I bruise very easily and was not surprised by the 6"x4" bruise on my right cheek. And I don't mean the cheek on my face:) It was huge! Well, fast forward to yesterday. The area was increasingly painful, affecting how I sat and drove and moved. At one point, my little Ivan came up behind me and playfully swatted my rear and brought me to tears it was so painful. Then I felt lethargic and hot, so I took my temp and there it was, 99.6F. Not much, but my history with infection causes me to spook with any fever. Back when I came home from the hospital after my emergency c-section, the site looked great, I felt fine, but started running a low-grade fever. That was the only symptom. And that ended up a nightmare of surgeries and a combined total of two months in isolation at the hospital. SO....with my temp eventually up to 101.4F in a short period of time, I drove myself in to the ER. Mark wanted to come with me, but it was already 7pm, and Ivan's bedtime is 8, so I didn't want to put him through that just so I could have company.

I waited for 2 hours in the stupid waiting room. Luckily I brought my Nintendo DS (pink of course). Played some Final Fantasy. The doctor checked it out and diagnosed it as cellulitis, an infection under the skin. So I was given one major dose of oral antibiotics and sent home with antibiotics and pain meds. I also had to go to the drugstore and pick up something called ichthammal salve, it's a drawing salve to pull the pus or fluid to the surface. Gross. I know. I have to put a hot compress on it for 20 minutes, then put the salve on a gauze pad and tape it to my ass for 6 hours, then wash, rinse, and repeat. I also have to see my doctor for a follow up today. Why it has to be today, I don't know. I would think I could wait a few days. The doc also said that sometimes you may need to be hospitalized and have it taken care of via IV antibiotics and maybe a minor 'procedure'. Ugh. I'm just thinking, great, with my history, this could suck big-time. But I'm trying to stay positive.

I have no plan for food yet today, and I don't know that I'll do it. I just feel all ookey from being up all night from sleeping poorly and just not feeling hungry from these hardcore pain meds.

So send me your bestest fast-healing, feel-good vibes today!!! I need 'em:)

Rest Day, Thank God

Today is my rest day for the week. I asked DF (dear fiance) what I should do. First, he had to pick his jaw up off the floor, as I rarely ask for his advice on how to do something:) Then, he told me to rest today since I was so sore from boxing and will be going again tomorrow. So I'll be working out Wednesday. Probably good ol' JM 30DS (Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred). I tell ya, since I have been boxing, working out at home has been so darn boring! But, alas, I have only two options here: Either go boxing 6 days a week, which will be difficult although not impossible, or supplement my exercise at home *yawn*. I could do more boxing, but there are two days with a certain trainer who I've heard is really old-school and does things that could potentially injure you. He's an older man, and my friend went to college for fitness, and she told me he does some dangerous stuff. So DF wants me nowhere near that class.

I must say, I will thoroughly enjoy my day of rest. I am so sore. My biceps are screaming. We did so much ab work. Yesterday I bent over in the bathroom to put a tissue in the wastebasket, and my lower abs felt like they were cramping up. That's how sore I am. I can't even bend over! It's very funny, and good in a "I-worked-my-ass-off" way, but seriously, I couldn't take more than a day or two of this.

Chow details:
-Avocado wrap (some avo and veggies in a wrap)
-Salad (red leaf lettuce, cucumber, homemade dressing)
-Cheese Pasties (from a Moosewood cookbook, cheese and veggies in a crust like a turnover), only one since they're high in fat even with low fat cheese
-1 c pineapple
-1 c frozen wild blueberries
-1 c organic "farmy" strawberries
-Yogurt, apple butter, flax "snack"
-2 glasses red wine

Total= 1656, and a lot of those calories are from fat today, in the avocado, dressing, and cheese pasties....oh well, the calories are on so I'll take it. But I may try to even it out for the week, and see if I can do a few lower fat days.

Feelin' Groovy....

Feeling good today. Can't explain it. Just a good day.

I went boxing again this morning. I didn't want to go. I'm still so damn sore from yesterday! However, I was following my "just show up" policy, and I'm really glad I did. It was a new trainer for me. The other trainer was on vacation. Tough stuff. Lots and lots of heavy bag work, and I'm going to guess at least 6 or 7 minutes straight of ab work. But that's the area that I need to work on the most. The fiance and I were discussing how I'm pretty much the epitome of apple-shaped. In fact, I don't know if I blogged about this or not, but the woman across the street asked in her broken English, "Baby coming??" I just laughed and said, "No. Just fat." I thought that was just awful. We all know that unless a woman tells you she's preggers, you DO NOT ASK!! It was really awkward. And depressing.....I carry every single extra pound of fat right in my upper abs, so it really does look like I'm expecting. But this is my shape, and I deal with it. I refuse to be one of those women who complains about this body part or that lump. I'm not happy with this body right now, but I don't hate on it. It's given me two babies and is very strong. And it will change. I have to keep the faith and keep on keepin' on.

I haven't discussed weight lately and that's for a reason. The scale hasn't budged. But I know that if I just keep up doing the best CRON I can and kick up the exercise, it will move eventually. I must admit though, it is tough to keep my chin up sometimes. Sometimes I wanna just say, "Screw it, nothing's happening anyway, might as well scarf down some pizza." But I don't, usually. I say usually cuz I'm not perfect, nor do I know anyone who is:) I also suspect that I may be gaining muscle as I lose fat, because I can see that my stomach is down a little. I do tend towards being very strong, even if I don't look "cut". That's my story and I'm sticking to it!

Anyways, the food for the day looks like this:
-hummus wrap
-romaine with feta, cucumber and homemade dressing
-turkey sausages on the grill....mmmm
-spinach....haven't figure out how yet, but something with minimal fat
-pineapple
-strawberries (from the farm!!)
-yogurt, apple butter, flax seed "snack"
-2 c watermelon
-Iced green tea with stevia...did I mention it's supposed to be 85 degrees today?
-coffee with half and half and stevia

Total so far: 1486

Edit

Update: I found stevia at the local grocery! So that will bring my calories down a little, which is good, cuz I'm super extra hungry today for some reason. AND...I'm having those rum and cokes with coke Zero, so no extra sugar or calories there either. Ha! I can do this. I see a hummus wrap in my very near future....

Oh Love!!!

As in, OMG shrimp tacos are the bomb diggety! We all inhaled them. They were so fresh and light and yummy. I could see this becoming a habit! They were super quick and easy, the hardest and most time-consuming part was making the pico de gallo and guacamole. Everything came together very fast. And they're pretty CRON-friendly, for a taco.

We hit the farm yesterday. I was obsessed. I was counting down the hours til pick up time. Then, we were waiting for Jackson (older son) to finish his homework, and man, he was takin' forevah! He didn't want to go, so I suspect he was stalling. So we go there, and it is a new greenhouse where we pick up because a few months ago the red barn that was used burned down. And the woman taking payment and in charge of everything had a little girl that was a little younger than Ivan. Her name was Ramona (how cute). Well, they were checking each other out and smiling and being little flirts. He even said in his cute little 3 yr old voice, "Bye bye Wamona!" Anyway, I let Jackson help me with picking the produce. We got a head of red leaf lettuce, spinach, turnips, pea shoots, strawberries, and a couple of garlic scapes. These are the baby garlic I think. They look like a curly scallion kind of. They have a very mild garlic flavor, and I'm actually using them in tonight's dinner, veggie stir-fry over brown rice. Can I just say the farm is the highlight of my week during the season?! How sad is that....*sigh*....

Foodie Goodness:
-Coffee w/ sugar and half and half
-Green tea w/ little sugar (straight up if I can take it)
-Banana/Blueberry smoothie
-Salad w/ red leaf lettuce, cucumber, feta, and homemade dressing (italian type)
-3 cups stir fry veggies, 3 TB teriyaki sauce, 1 c brown rice
-1 c pineapple, 1 c strawberries, 1 c plain organic yogurt blended up into a lovely smoothie
-The guilty pleasure on this smoldering hot day.....2 Rum and Cokes:) (Hey, I added them in!)

Total= 1693

I'm boxing this morning too. I'm looking forward to it, since I pretty much missed last week due to Ivan's presurgical stuff and subsequent surgery. Boxing makes me realize how out of shape I am. I push myself so hard there though. Nothing like going through the motions at home. I'm one of the heaviest girls there, and on the lower end of the stamina/fitness spectrum. I just know that if I just keep showing up, even when I don't 'feel' like it, I'll reap the benefits. But I usually feel like it:)

There is a "Wild Mustang Day" at the local ecology center today. We're thinking of taking the boys. They have baby mustangs and are going to learn why they are disappearing, and they'll do face-painting and stuff. All for free! But that's if we can actually make ourselves get out the door. We're all pretty much homebodies, and all of us going somewhere is a feat of epic proportions. Stay tuned.....

Too Young

I just got some sad news last night. Friends that lived near my ex's house (where I used to live), lost their 19 yr old daughter in a motorcycle accident. They had two girls, and this was the older daughter. She apparently was newly engaged and had just found out she was pregnant. Her fiance was trying to outrun police and lost control of the motorcycle with her on it. I'm still shocked. I can't stop thinking about it. I remember her and her mother coming to see Jackson when he was first brought home from the hospital. She even babysat for us a few times. We always chitchatted with the parents at the bus stop too. It got me thinking about something happening to my boys. You just never know, you know? And that poor younger sister now has to live as an only child after growing up with her sister her whole life. Just so much to take in. I just keep thinking about all these "what if" scenarios in my head. Her fiance survived. Now he has to live with the fact that he killed his bride and unborn child.

So I've been a little distracted this morning and haven't yet worked out my food for the day. I should have done it last night like I usually do, but I wasn't in the mood.

Yesterday was my older son's field day at school. I could only watch the first half, since we had to get back home to put the baby on the bus. Soooo cute. They did all these different stations and had to do various physical activities like crabwalking and freeze tag. He told me the night before that he really wanted me to go (I wasn't planning on going). So I HAD to. How could I deny him? Especially since he lost that tooth and now has that goofy little kid smile that makes me wanna smother him with luvin':) But I digress.....

Today is also the first pick up for the CSA!!!! I am so excited, I can't stand myself. We are all going as a family after school and will be picking the pick-your-own stuff (strawberries, chives, and mint) as well as our regular share. The website says we'll be getting head lettuce, spring mix, some harukei (sp??) turnips, radishes, peas (I think)....yum yum yum....nom nom nommy goodness! I think there's more but I forgot.

I do know what I'm making for dinner tonight. My first attempt at shrimp tacos!! I even made homemade pico de gallo and guacamole:) And I'm sure we'll have a fresh salad made from our organic local lettuce from the farm! Looking forward to it, as is the rest of my family.

He's Fixed!

My little one's surgery was Tuesday morning. As in, the first surgery of the day at a hospital an hour away so we had to get up at 4:30 in the morning!! Ahhhh! But it all went very well. He was only in the operating room for about an hour. First, though, you get to go in while they put them out with the anesthesia (if you want to/can handle it). This is the hardest part for me (unfortunately I've done it a few times). You lay them down on the table. There's the team of surgeons and nurses and such all around with their masks on. You hold his hand and look into his eyes and tell him everything's alright and that you're there so he doesn't start freaking out. Sometimes they even sing a little song to them, like Eensy Weensy Spider. Then they put the little mask over his face and tell him to breath. Then he does, and he starts looking a little spacey. Then the worst part is when his eyes start to close. It honestly looks like he's dying. It's really creepy and you have to be strong not to flip out yourself. I was fine, I've done it. But there was a woman who came out into the waiting area who I assume had just done it, and she lost it. I felt bad for her.

So when I got to recovery he was still asleep. But he started to wake up a little later, and he was soooo good. He didn't cry or anything. There were kids all over the place screaming and crying but not my little man. Then once he was good and awake and holding down apple juice, we got sent up to our room. Then we just vegged and watched a LOT of Nick Jr. He's pulled out IVs before, but he left this one alone, thank goodness. He also had a drain pinned to his gown. Which he also left alone, surprisingly! He gradually started to eat soft stuff like yogurt, but they kept giving him stuff that he doesn't like, like these disgusting fruit cup/parfait gel things that I would never feed my kids, and jello. He was really hungry and kept telling me he was, but they wouldn't let me give him anything else! I was getting irritated. I mean, when I had surgery, they just wait a few hours to make sure you're tolerating the clear/soft stuff, then you can chow down. But I guess since the surgery was on his neck (to close his trach hole), they were concerned with irritation. Well, I started sneaking him some of the stuff I brought just in case. Some whole grain cheesy goldfish, a chocolate pudding, and an orange. He did fine and was very happy! We spent the night, him in blissful sleep in his very own crib, and me on the hard-as-a-rock chair with a leg piece thingy. My back was hurting the next day. We were discharged at about 8:30 yesterday morning. All is well. He doesn't even bother with it. He's got a bunch of steristrips covering the site.

So, onto the diet. Yes. What we are all waiting to hear about. Well....you see.....I haven't counted calories in a while. I kinda lost the flow over the Memorial Day weekend, we were grilling and drinking too much. Then Ivan had the surgery and I had to deal with cafeteria food and just quickly grabbing things when he was asleep. Sure, they offered fresh fruit, yogurt, and salads...but did I eat any of that??? Naaaah. But the scale has not suffered. I feel a little sluggish and bloated, but no worse for the wear. I've started afresh today. And here's the plan:

-Blueberry banana smoothie
-Romaine with tahini dressing
-Borscht w/ a dollop of plain yogurt
-Juice: romaine, apple, carrot, ginger, and lemon
-Green smoothie: apple, banana, spinach
-Pineapple
-3 c frozen stir fry veggies
-1 c brown rice
-1/4 c teriyaki sauce
-2 large eggs
-1 slice american cheese
-1/4 c salsa

TOTAL: 1608

Well, that's the scoop! On to my hectic day with my older son's field day at school:) Oh, and he lost a front tooth while I was gone. He looks sooooo adorable I just wanna kiss and hug him all the time. He won't let me though. Oh well.