Bingeing

I'm so annoyed with myself right now.

Mark and I have an issue. He likes to sleep with the tv off and has a hard time falling asleep if it's on. Me, I've always fallen asleep with the tv on and just set the timer so it turns off later after I've fallen asleep. Well, I sleep on the couch most nights so I can watch tv, and he sleeps in the bedroom where it's all dark and quiet. This all started when I had surgery after my littlest one was born. I had a contraption called a wound vac (yes it's just what it sounds like) attached to my abdomen, and it would alarm and make noise all night. And it was easier to just sleep on the couch, more comfortable with the wound vac, since I needed a place to set it on and the coffee table worked just fine.
So, we all know I've been struggling with late night snacking and insomnia. It's made much easier by the fact that the couch is right next to the kitchen and nobody's around to see me. See, I'm sneaky. Well, last night I tried to sleep in the bedroom. I figure this will help me stay out of the fridge during the night. I turned on the tv, even though I know Mark doesn't like it. We gotta compromise right? It's turned down so low I can hardly hear it, so it won't disturb him, and he's got his eye mask on and earplugs in. Well, I am 'this close' to falling asleep and he turns to me and says (waking me totally up, btw) he can't fall asleep. So, sighing, I just get up and go out to the living room. A little irritated, but understanding. Then I eat. I ate pretzels, cookies, and a bowl of raisin bran with 1% milk. I ate because I was kinda mad and I couldn't get back to sleep.

Why? Why do I sabotage myself? I work out consistently, I eat right during the day. Then night comes and I totally ruin the good things I've done for myself.
I've ordered a buttload of supplements to start taking. I am following Dr. Amen's Change Your Brain, Change Your Body. I suffer from depression and bipolar disorder, and a lot of what he says makes sense to me. There are so many factors that affect weight and depression. Deficiency in any number of nutrients can lead to depression, sleep problems, and weight gain. Not getting enough sleep in itself is a weight factor. I have so much going against me. But I'm going to try these supplements, and keep trying to stop the late night eating. That's all I can do is try. I have the pieces of the puzzle, I just have to put them together correctly.